Chronicles & Fantasies

April 20: The Overbearing Feeling of Happiness

2011-04-20T00:02:00.002-04:00

Once upon a time.. and not too long ago, the immaculate conception of a fairy tale overpowered existence.. and beyond any reasonable believe, things have turned out to be just exactly as they are supposed to.
Talk about fate, huh ?

While not too many words can describe feelings, many others can indeed be use to make a special someone feel appreciated, admired and loved. After a lot of personal research, I did find what I was looking for.

Not an explanation, not a reason to be or to feel.. But that certainty that makes everything work. Makes everything be perfect in its own way.

Many would say days are countless when you are blessed, and they would even suggest to take a breather and come back to reality.

Well, my answer ? My reality has overcome my dreams, has successfully surpass the experiences I had only imagined before this, and has turned into my most appreciated gift and my most precious desire.

My "once upon a time" became my ... "and they lived happily ever after" .. I can only hope for two things. That the sense and feeling of happiness and completion is mutual, the feeling of how unbelievably lucky we are ... and that the blessings surrounding us today, only grow and strengthen with the many more days to come.

R.-

I've always known .. It's You ..

2010-11-22T00:52:00.001-05:00

I know what I want..

I'v always known..

A warm hug, a smile, the soft laughter of a good time

the sensitive caress of your breath next to my skin

the truth behind your hazel eyes and the strength of your soul

The voice that lingering keeps me still and down to earth

the humble heart that does not know when to stop giving

the firm hands that work non-stop for the future

A strong character that does not dwell even when it seems impossible to resist

the lips that kiss but don't tell, that speak but not lie, that so often have been mine

the embrace of never wanting to let go, the desire of never wanting it to stop

I've always known..

I just kept waiting until you showed up, until life would be fair enough to bring you to my door and show me that in reality, you were far more fascinating that in any of my dreams.. that in any of my wishes..

You brought with you a new light and a new meaning

showed me that admiration for someone else was possible and feasible

and that loving without boundaries, without regrets, with only hope and pure desire is not only possible, but the only way to love truly, madly and deeply..

I knew before and I know now

that my days have a different story and my perspective keeps changing each day,

becoming wider, becoming more real and more human

That my moments of solitude are rare and that enjoying life has turned into magic by spending each moment by your side..

I've come to touch the sky, light the starts, kiss the moon and fly around the universe because of you..

I've learned that forever is now, happiness is subjective and love can really conquer all.

I've always known .. that love is You.

[ N.A.N. ]

Me.-

And It Feels Like Sand.. Slipping Thru' My Fingers..

2010-11-21T23:41:00.001-05:00

Thats what reality feels like these days..

it goes by unnoticed, unbiased, unseen..

She seems to forget who we are, why we're here for

On different days, the sun heats the sorrow

takes away the pain and allows for reassurance

Others, its cold grip seems to tie my heart and unleash pure lust

My reality has changed.. Several months have come and gone

yet my season remains the same, untouched

Believing in that same old fairy tale that will never end

Holding on too tight will suffocate my desire ..

yet my fear of letting loose reminds me it could fly away

So I fight, each and every day, to find that balance ..

[ .. .. ]

Me.-

The Man I Admire

2010-07-25T22:55:00.003-04:00

His looks are often deceiving

rough around the edges and unbreakable

but under that iron wall

his heart and soul are pure..

The target of tough critics

yet his strength surpasses each and every one of them

His essence is real and nothing stops him

The Man I Admire

is gentle in his touch with an incomparable character

his like no one else I've known

like nothing else I've seen

The world keeps spinning and he wont fall

the truth of his eyes is worth more than the words of his opposers

simple words that the wind blows away

and his actions prevail

He is often taken for granted and even hurt

yet what no one seems to know is how every single time they try to break him

he raises to the occasion, above everything and everyone

The Man I Admire

is true to his values, his morals, his beliefs

he won't let anything drag him to a point where he will betray himself

Integrity and passion keep him accompanied

His devotion to what he does, to what he loves

his will to fight for everything, to face everything

no matter how bad things might get at some point

his phoenix-like attitude takes him above all

The Man I Admire

Will not forget himself along the way,

will not forget how much he is loved

and how much he is blessed.

The Man I Admire.. Is You.

N.K.N.

Me.-

...

2010-05-27T21:43:00.002-04:00

I'm not mad at you ..

I'm mad at myself for not trusting your better judgement..

I fell in love with you .. with all your amazing qualities

and the flaws that make you human .. with the fact that you knew better than me

and the knowledge that your strength can protect me..

I am mad at myself for caring in a way that hurts us both

for being selfish beyond my control and for underestimating your decision

even when I feel in my core is not the right one.. is Yours

I am mad for being overemotional

for being immature at times and for picking on stuff I should just let go of

I am mad at you for not listening ..

for not remembering..

for not considering..

I am sad for letting it all affect me and angry because I don't see the remedy

I am pissed.. upset.. mad.. taken aback.. desperate.. and all the words you might want to call it..

All the feelings you might want to think about ..

And suddenly I am speechless .. Wordless .. Feelingless..

Just Hurt ..

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2010-05-27T21:25:00.003-04:00

Me molesta darme cuenta que mis palabras chocan contra el vacio

que una pared me recibe y me acoge con la triste bienvenida del olvido

me duele que las espinas se me clavan sin cesar y que las palabras simplemente dejan de ser..

Me lastima no ser mas que un espejismo de lo pasado,

un recuerdo de lo prohibido y un himno a lo que no sera..

Se siente frio y seco el ambiente..

La realidad pertenece a otra dimension, a otras personas, con otros sentidos..

La pasion que desprenden mis caricias son consumidas y dejadas atras

mis palabras no sirvien de consuelo y mi actitud nunca es suficiente..

Tal vez no soy suficiente..

No basta con ser un alma preocupada, abnegada y entregada

no basta con ser y querer.. estar y poder

El dolor siempre es mas poderoso, consume mas rapido, destruye con mas fortaleza

y desvanece toda existencia..

Los mil y un deseos positivos son envueltos en la vibra del no querer

del no hacer .. y yo ? La pregunta retumba en mi conciencia como si la respuesta no existiese.. como si yo no existiese..

La razon nunca ha sido amiga del corazon,

lo traiciona, lo envuelve y manipula.. y el indefenso sufre cada punalada como si fuese la primera vez.. como si la experiencia siempre fuese ajena a su recorrido..

Nunca he aprendido a dejar fluir sin preocuparme

nunca he aprendido a entregarme con limitaciones

nunca he aprendido a que las demas cosas simplemente no son como yo quiero

nunca he aprendido que las demas personas tienen su propia forma y yo solo soy una simple mortal que no puede y no debe cambiarlas

nunca he aprendido que mis sufrimientos son mis lecciones de vida

nunca he aprendido que cada lagrima me hace fuerte, aunque en el momento me quiebren la vida

nunca he aprendido que una sonrisa falsa me traicionara dos pasos mas adelante

nunca he aprendido que mis palabras, dichas o escritas, de alguna forma seran usadas en mi contra

nunca he aprendido que los demas son y ya.. tienen y ya.. y eso no implica nada magnifico

nunca he aprendido que aunque muchos me ven como una buena persona, mi propio juicio no sobrepasa esa calificacion

nunca he aprendido a no entristecer .. mis lagrimas parecen tener en ocasiones vida propia

nunca he aprendido que los dias no me acercan a mis suenos, simplemente me alejan de lo ficticio

nunca he aprendido que mi pensar y mi sentir es mio.. y ya.. nadie lo comparte

nunca he aprendido que mi forma de ser es MIA.. nadie la tiene, nadie la copia, nadie la imita y simplemente nadie tiene las ganas de hacerlo

nunca he aprendido a comprender sin cuestionar, a creer sin preguntar, a halagar sin juzgar, a mirar sin advertir ni a sentir sin lastimar

nunca he aprendido que mis sentimientos son eso.. las cosas que siento, las que me hacen feliz y las que me lastiman.. pero son mios.. yo los tengo en mi y yo se que hacer con ellos

nunca he aprendido que la opinion de los demas siempre va despues de la mia

nunca he aprendido que hay cosas que no importan.. que hay personas que no importan.. o simplemente, dejan de importar ..

Me juzgo, me critico, me maltrato como el peor de los enemigos lo haria

me pregunto, me analizo y me vuelco en emociones que al final del dia, solo me llevan a la misma conclusion.. la mia.

La unica que me acompana y de la que nunca he aprendido a desprenderme ..

Me.-

One Is Never Enough..

2010-05-27T21:17:00.002-04:00

Fucking pissed!

Yes, angry at the mere existent of today

at the fact that seems turn around in a minute

at the night because it becomes cold and shallow

and the day becomes bright and vain..

Mad at the whole world for just being

at the surroundings for never being enough

at the attitude of others for becoming self-centered

and oblivious to reality..

Mentally blocked and trying not to feel

not to say

not to realize

just want it all to end..

Just want it all to end..

The realization is cold and empty

the desire is true and powerful ..

like a diseases that is meant to kill you yet only prolongs the agony of the days

like a broken smile and haunts you from the past..

ONE is never enough.. THINGS are never enough..

there will always be the wish for something else

for someone else

for someone else's

there will always be the constant comparison

the never ending judgment and the fucking despair ..

The solitude, the hurt, the tears, the screaming and shouting

all condensed in one single soul..

My Soul..

Me.-

For Neno ..

2010-04-26T11:58:00.006-04:00

He smiled at her..
It was the first time the warmth of a smile had touched her heart.
And she had loved before. She had cared, perhaps in different ways and different times

His essence was a change..
It was as a brand new sparkling day filled with hope
As if the breeze had change its course and was only there for her

He showed her a different sentiment, a different expression
It was like a complete change of perspective, a new gift of life
And she believed her luck had finally turned around

His heart was pure from start, his soul had a different charm
And she felt taken aback.. Swept off her feet and mesmerized
The torturous hours had turn into marvelous desires ..

The smile on his face was a brand new spectrum of wishes
She had finally fallen in love in the purest and simplest way
And the feeling had swirled around her and made it perfect

The sense of stopping time,
The desire of his hands and his kiss
The look in his eyes
The sound of his voice
The way he made her safe and special
The way she was important for someone
The way she meant something for someone

He had taken her life and painted it with new colors
She had met a soul to keep her company
She would be forever grateful ..
She would be forever in love ..

Me.-

Wooden Doll

2010-04-25T23:41:00.000-04:00

There once was a wooden doll
with a broken smile on her scarlet face
She was placed above the rest
as if something different had happened to her..

Her eyes were wide and clear
perhaps result of the flow of tears
her hands were closed as if they carried no more hope

She was alone, watching from above
as the rest of the dolls enjoyed the world
it was mundane the lonely feeling, and she resented
not having the same freedom

And then one day she was picked up
from the lonely shelter where she had been hiding

The hands were soft, yet strong..
and with immense care handled her way
The wooden doll was mesmerized.. and stayed in awe

His hands had found the way
his care had woken up a flow of sentiments that were dead
She felt surprised and thankful
he carried himself with a natural sense..

The wood had vanished and left her free
and no longer she sat alone above the rest
Her heart was filled with warmth and love
.. ..

She was no longer known as the Wooden Doll ..

Me.-

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2010-01-25T21:23:00.000-05:00

It takes 60 seconds to change someone's perspective

it takes a breath, a break, a moment

The actual will to do it

It has nothing more to it, than wanting it

than realizing things are a certain way and understanding

how prematurely we can be deceived by what it seems

and be fooled for what it was

It takes less than 60 seconds to make someone smile or cry

to change a person's life or their emotions

and to change your own..

One single instant can change faith,

it can cure a heartbreak

and help heal a wound

In a minute, you can become an entirely different person

in the eyes of a stranger

Or become a perfect stranger in the eyes of someone loved

Valuable as it is,

in 60 seconds one look can become the world to someone

one word can become a life to someone

one expression might be the reflection of a lifetime

It takes a breath, a break, a moment

and it takes the will to actually wanting do it

It can be as soon as now or as far as never

but why wouldn't You ?

why wouldn't I ?

Why would you let slide by those 60 seconds that can make me smile ?

Or why would I ignore that same amount of time

to show the truth behind my eyes ?

We can make it all different from what it seems, from what it is

change a tear for the laughter of a youngster

or a cold hand for the warm embrace of love..

60 seconds of your time to change my life

60 seconds of my time to change your life

One single breath is all it takes..

Me.-

Imprint

2010-01-18T20:40:00.006-05:00

Writing on the walls of my subconscience

leaving permanent imprints of what it is, of what it was

losing the battle with a pure understanding

and drifting into what seems to be the darkest abyss of perception

The wonders of my thoughts are countless

and the secrets of my mind are vast and rare

My perfect illusion imitates a reality that does not exist

and within the borders of hope, it disappears

It doesn't turn more black even when it doesn't stop hurting

it does not become easier to subside and accept

Reaching out, looking for the final light where it all breaks apart

the hours seem to pass by without any kind of care nor evidence

And I keep writing,

the last verses of my existence, the last breath I will ever take

My walls might tell a secret, might tell a few

my battle will be the final chapter when the book is finally closed

The imprint will have my name and I will take the vivid remembrance with me

I will say good bye and it will see me go

And the writings will tell their story..

My story..

Me.-

It's been bittersweet.. But I can say good-bye now..

2009-12-30T23:18:00.000-05:00

As the end approaches,

the sublime remembering of days long gone surrounds me..

as every other passing one,

it's been an incomparable journey..

Perhaps.. la travesia esta vez fue mas sentida que los anteriores,

tal vez.. mas cargada de emociones y experiencias..

Yet its flavor remains as bittersweet..

Me despido de un hermoso hogar,

para regresar a una antigua casa..

I leave new friends behind and reunite with my old ones,

the ones that have always been..

Las luces de mi ciudad cambiaron y con ellas, la vista desde mi ventana

mi perspectiva de vida.. la calidez de mi entorno..

I've been shedding skin and memories while I continue to build new steps..

Looking back, it's been a tough one..

it has made my core thicker and I've known what scars are made of..

I've known love and I have lost it..

And I have won it back..

I have laughed non-stop and cried myself to sleep..

I've said hello and good-bye so many times that I can't keep count

I have missed and have desired, yet I carry no regrets

He pensado que la vida es injusta y he deseado caminos alternos

he perdido la paciencia solo para darme cuenta que nunca la he tenido de mi lado

my wars have been blood-deep and yet I'm still waiting for my victory

I've been thankful and I've been ungrateful..

No se si he pedido mas de lo que he brindado, pero dudo haber lastimado

con intencion o con un deseo vehemente..

Me he confesado un sinnumero de veces conmigo misma

y he profanado contra toda existencia..

I've been lied to and I have lied..

I've denied my feelings and I've hidden my sorrow for the peace of others

He perdido cuenta de las lagrimas y de las sonrisas

pero cada una ha dejado su indeleble huella

Le dije adios a una etapa de crecimiento por la cual estare eternamente agradecida

y aun en los malos momentos, creo que no he dejado de ser bendecida

My constant struggle with myself reminds me that is not over..

Its just another 365-day-long tour gone by and the clock won't stop at the beginning of the new one..

He perdido y he ganado..

y he dejado de lado sin ningun tipo de remordimiento

Me han robado ilusiones y me he aferrado en la creacion de nuevos suenos

I can't look back with a full smile and no tears..

Nor with tears and not a single smile because I've gotten both

Because I've experienced both

But I can say good-bye now, because it's time has run

And I can wish for the start of a better one..

✼ 〯Es posible que la dicha o felicidad completa no exista.. pero la ilusion que causa alcanzarla es la esperanza que cada ser humano debe llevar en su corazon, en su vida.. El placer de los buenos momentos y las ensenanzas de los dificiles.

Recordar su paso sin ningun tipo de arrepentimientos es una tarea individual, pero en conjunto, se puede hacer que el recorrido al final valga la pena.-

May you have a Happy New Year and may you find within you the peace and joy you need to shine with your own light, never forgetting your true worth.

Love always,

Rocio.-

Attesa da Trovare

2009-12-14T01:44:00.000-05:00

Like a simple whisper, shallow and sad

your shadow of existence remained..
The sounds that the night dragged
were now just simple memories left behind

With open-welcoming arms you stood by
only to realize no one was coming to them
There was just an empty space
an empty shell that no one wanted

The day brought its common light
yet your own personal darkness consumed you
no other place, no other time..
with no other wish but to die..

And you.. You remained calmed
like a lonely leaf on a windless night
Like your dreams and desires had vanished
and mere existence had stopped permanently..

You waited..
standing still,
letting the silence of your surroundings take over
watching life pass by you turning you into a silent witness

And dreamed.. of that moment..
of that particular space of time
when you would finally be found..

✼ 〯And when she was asked what she wanted more than anything in life, her answer was simple: Found .. .. - A.R.

Me.-

Trapped

2009-08-30T01:13:00.000-04:00

Encerrada dentro de las entrañas indelebles de tu existencia
captiva y ausente del mundo alla afuera, sin paz, sin aire..
Simplemente con la respiracion cortada por tu abrazo maligno
y sin poder escapar de ti, de esto..

Within the walls of consciousness I can't find peace of mind
no rest, no conclusions.. yet time stands still
Like a never-ending reminder of what I might be missing out
I fell prey and now I can't escape..

Sin razon alguna el encierro se hace letal
y la aungustia me consume, me aterra..
Pasó de ser un paseo de ilusiones en un castillo de cristal
a un tormento de emociones en un ataud de hierro..

And I fight, to break out free
my strength deliberately dwelling into nothing
and I.. seeing my reflection like a blur
A vision that is not really there anymore

Perdida, secuestrada y olvidada por mi misma
y por las almas ajenas a mi, que ignoran mi grito de ayuda
me siento.. impaciente y vacia.. destrozada y desganada
a esperas de ser liberada ..

Me.-

Who Said That..

2009-08-24T02:14:00.007-04:00

Who said a birthday is important anyways ? Its just another day of the year.. now celebrating life and your existence.. that should be something to look forward to everyday, and being able to share it with someone that loves you unconditionally ..

That what's important is what you do on your every day life ? When reality is that the people that you have around, are the ones that can make it worth while and the ones that can cause and impact or a change, the ones that can make you or break you with their words and their actions.. in the end, you need to remain true to yourself..

That loving someone else is far more important than loving yourself ? Truth is that no one can make you feel better if you don't rely on your own strength to be happy. That no matter how much you give to someone else, you need to treat yourself every day with unconditional love, undeniable honesty and hoping for a brighter moment with each passing second..

That words can mean the world to someone ? When there is no action that follows, the words are just empty and shallow.. they mean nothing and are worth nothing, they are gone with the wind of the next morning.. thats why you need to act upon your belief all the time..

Who told you that nothing can cure a broken heart and that you won't love the same way ever again ? If you give yourself the time to heal and maintain your hope and never stop dreaming, the right person might just be around the corner, patiently waiting to show you that what happened before was just a little bump on the road and that happiness lies ahead for you.

Who said that crying over someone is a bad thing ? Perhaps that person out there will never deserve your tears, but they are yours to let them out and with them the anxiety and pain of getting hurt - with them, you let go of the resentment and put your soul at ease..

Who said that a good-bye is necessarily forever ? Sometimes you need to let go to be able to see if it was truly yours or meant to be.. It might come back and your sad good-bye might become a wonderful new hello..

Me.-

Photography by Rebecca White

Note To Self

2009-07-14T23:14:00.000-04:00

To keep in mind: that the past is gone and I cannot bring it back - and trying to is not a healthy option.

Que lo que se fue pierde su valor en el momento que sale por la puerta de tu vida, y solo importa todo lo que queda delante.. Las nuevas entradas y las nuevas vivencias.

That no matter how much you fight against the current and course of life, when things are meant to go one way, nada ni nadie puede contra ellas.

Que la peor revolucion del ser humano es consigo mismo - es la peor lucha interna entre el bien y el mal - nunca contra el mundo, pero si contra los propios pensamientos, la duda y el temor.

That as much as you love you have to set free at times, maybe it does come back after all.

Que nada es color d rosa (gracias a Dios!) Pero si hay momentos maravillosos e incomparables que hacen que todo este recorrido valga la pena.

Que unas simples letras en un papel no son mas que un desahogo de una mortal cuyas vivencias a veces la consumen, pero al final la hacen mas fuerte.

Que sonreir porque si siempre tiene un motivo oculto, aunque no lo quieras admitir.

That tears may be from a broken heart, but you never start to heal until you really let them flow.

That you may become vain and shallow just because you got hurt, but is your responsability to be the bigger person and never dwell permanently on it.

Que las circunstancias que te ponen entre la espada y la pared te forman el caracter, cuan valiente eres y que tan dispuesto a dar el todo por el todo.

That fear is always watching with its evil eye waiting for you to succumb to it..it is your choice whether to please it or please yourself.

Que no puedo cambiar al mundo, ni quiero, y debo entender que la realidad no es siempre mi cuento de hadas personal.

Que por mas que te aferres a algo, si no es tuyo, se va y es cuestion de asimilarlo.

Que la confianza en los demas, comienza con la confianza en uno mismo.

That letting go is far much harder than moving on, because it implies leaving the luggage of regrets and what-ifs behind.

That saying good-bye might be hard, but sometimes is necessary and the only way left.

That this too, shall pass and it will remain in the depths of history as another simple experience.

That feeling vulnerable is not bad, as long as your focus is on what you really want with all your heart.

Que no puedes decidir mas alla que sobre tu propia vida y tus propias acciones, por mas que luches con todos los demonios ajenos: tu vida es tuya y la de los demas, es ajena.

That feeling sad is just a state of mind, stage of time, and never permanent.
That being happy is a choice: you decide if you are willing to take it.

That I'm capable of everything and anything I set my mind into and no one can say the opposite.

Finalmente, que las cosas que realmente valen la pena, no se compran, no se venden ni se comparan con otras; son unicas para ti y tu existencia, son las que hacen que todo valga la pena.. Esas que cuando te faltan, se llevan un pedazo de ti consigo.. Those are the ones you should always seek and keep next to your heart.

Me.-

Vivir es.. Atreverse..

2009-07-08T01:53:00.000-04:00

En Serio ?

Si te sientas a pensarlo, no tiene sentido.. Pierde toda logica y todo punto de razon

deja de ser un analisis real y se convierte en una paradoja..

Puro y simple: una asercion inverosimil y absurda..

Como lo crees ? Como confias ?

Es que haces acaso un voto de lealtad con tu subconsciente ?

O mejor! Pretendes..

Claro, pretendes que las cosas son de una forma para asi crear una falsa tranquilidad dentro de ti ..

Que pasa cuando ese muro se derrumba ?

Cuando tu engano y tus mentiras, esas mismas que fabricaste solo para tu paz mental, se esfuman ?

Cuando la realidad te golpea sin piedad alguna y te hace enfrentar a la figura en el espejo..

Te escondiste durante tanto tiempo detras de una maraña de invenciones personales que te olvidaste de tu sentir,

de tu pensar verdadero, de tu real forma de ser y ver las cosas.

Te olvidaste de lo que es realmente importante y diste pie a lo que es simplemente pasajero..

lo que es solamente una mascara que utilizas para ir por la vida sin que las cosas te afecten, la pregunta es: vives realmente ?

Vivir es .. Atreverse

Es olvidar el miedo y saltar - aun cuando es mucho mas facil decirlo que hacerlo.

Es sobrevivir a las circunstancias y resurgir con un caracter mas definido.

Vivir es .. Arriesgarse

Dar un paso adelante - aun cuando no tienes nada seguro y cuando el miedo se aferra a ti ..

es ahi cuando demuestras cuan capaz eres de enfrentarlo, dejarlo de lado y tomar la oportunidad en tus manos..

Vivir es .. Olvidar y dejar atras

Todo lo malo y lo negativo - aun cuando te dejo huellas indelebles y el sabor amargo de la tristeza..

Es cuando te dices a ti mismo, esta es solo una etapa mas que tambien quedara en el pasado..

Entonces.. Vives realmente ?

Cuando tu tranquilidad mental depende de una "capa protectora" que te escuda del mundo alla afuera ..

Que te protege de sentir a flor de piel la plenitud de estar vivo, el gozo de querer y amar de corazon..

de reir a carcajadas sin control alguno.. de las enseñanzas que deja llorar solo para recuperarte y verte a ti mismo un ser mas fuerte..

En serio, Crees que Vives ? ..

Me.-

Photography by Andreas Stridsberg

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2009-05-27T01:34:00.002-04:00

Lo dejas escapar..

como un suspiro perdido en un espacio de tiempo que ya no existe mas

te quiere consumir en una red de artimañas vacias

y juega contigo.. conmigo..

Te susurra lo que deseas oir por el solo hecho de recordar

sin darte cuenta que te arrastra en su maraña escabrosa, sucia, perdida

que al final del dia lastimarte es soltar la ultima carcajada

y la ultima estocada es verte caer una vez mas..

No piensas, no pienso..

pero consume, acaba con las fuerzas y las ganas

y te convierte en presa facil de un juego de mentiras y desengaños

desilusiones que no te dejan ser y que por mas que te resistes

se convierten en tortura

Mira mas alla de eso,

atrevete a olvidar y dejar pasar

a comenzar de nuevo en un lienzo limpio

procura que cada nueva pincelada sea delicada y te haga feliz

ignora la ronca voz del pasado y la presencia que te acecha

Respira.. y dejalo ir ..

[ ... ]

Y Tu.. Te Atreves ?

2009-05-08T23:52:00.005-04:00

A mirar mas alla de los dias y las noches
y olvidar los prejuicios de todo aquel mortal que pretende saberlo todo
y no sabe nada.. que pretende enjuiciarte por no entenderte
y condenarte simplemente porque no eres uno mas...

[ ... ]

Untitled

2009-05-07T00:31:00.000-04:00

Besame..
con la pasion de un primer encuentro y la nostalgia de un ultimo adios
pero no me dejes escapar de ti ..

Aferrame a tu cuerpo con ganas desenfrenadas
conquistando cada espacio de mi ser con tus manos
y tus caricias explorando cada rincon

Dejame ser tuya en un instante de locura
donde tus gemidos sean la melodia resonante en mi habitacion
y tu espalda encuentre reposo en mi lecho

Permiteme dibujar pinceladas de placer sobre ti como un lienzo perfecto
mientras mi boca en un encuentro sublime te hace perder la razon
y juntos saciamos la sed de lujuria que corre por las venas

Deleita mis ojos con tu sonrisa y dejame sentir el acorde de tu respiracion
susurrante.. calmante..
mientras la noche se prolonga en extasis
y dejamos perder los motivos y la logica..

Me.-

Untitled

2009-04-07T23:47:00.000-04:00

Me escondo detras del escaparate transparente del olvido
la indiferencia es el peor castigo..
las horas se hacen eternas y los segundos ya no pasan por el reloj
el silencio cubre con su manto el lagrimal de mis noches
y la tristeza amarga de ver todo perdido me corroe

El infinito de los dias desarma mis sentidos y no puedo,
no puedo y no quiero..
ya no me basta una simple sonrisa al vacio
ni un atardecer que muere en soledad
ni la sencillez de la luna cuando se asoma en la ventana

Me parece absurda la espera
me parece ilogico el sentir tanto y no sentir nada
el querer algo y no tenerlo me desangra
y cada gota que cae sobre el lienzo blanco me arrastra de vuelta a la realidad

No existe el espacio y no existo
ya no se me antoja ser un mueble acomodado en el rincon
ni el adorno mas preciado sentado sobre el mostrador
me lastima y me hace ahogarme en una desesperanza maldita

Y esa carcajada.. burlona y vengativa
me recuerda que no hay nada mas
que la mano fria de un amargo desenlace se asoma y me toma entre sus garras
y como presa indefensa.. me consume..

Me.-

Adios.. Melancolia

2009-03-30T23:44:00.000-04:00

...
Con la ultima lagrima que corrio por mi mejilla
olvide el sonido de tu voz y tu esencia
deje de caminar por senderos vacios buscando de ti
y me resigne a perder..

Me sente a esperar el capitulo final del cuento sin ser la protagonista
me olvide de ser una hoja mas en ese gran libro creyendo en fantasias
y las ansias dejaron de ser parte de mi, de mis deseos

Los dias pasaron a ser grises y las tardes morian en llanto
como el canto roto de un viejo piano en el desvan
olvidado, arropado con la niebla del pasado

La melancolia, la eterna companera de los dias
y la tristeza siendo cruel testigo de las noches
asi me despedi y te fuiste..

Tu partida fue la estocada final a mis palabras
y tu ausencia el unico recuerdo envejeciente en mi habitacion..
no te vere y no me extranaras
ya nunca mas seremos pero seras ..
y el adios llegara como la luna con cada nueva noche ..

Me.-

Home Sweet Home

2009-03-18T23:47:00.007-04:00

Como aprendes a añorarla cuando estas lejos

y su recuerdo te trae sonrisas indelebles

aprendes a entenderla

cuando te ves forzado a compararla con tu nueva realidad

y te das cuenta que nunca sale de ti, nunca se queda atras..

Aprendes que cada nuevo dia compartes tu nuevo sol con el pasado

que casa y hogar no es lo mismo y que tu esfuerzo en tierras lejanas

no es mas que el reflejo de un vivir pasajero..

Te miras en el espejo deseando regresar

y aunque la duda a veces te remueve,

el corazon sabe siempre la verdad..

Llevas en tu equipaje tus costumbres y tus motivos del dia a dia

y la innegable compañia de la mano amiga

esa que sin razones, siempre esta ahi..

En la distancia,

aprendes que tu recorrido no tiene sentido sino miras atras

sino reconoces tus raices y no engrandeces el nombre de la cuna que te vio nacer

Creces y valoras todos los altibajos

y entiendes que solo te hacen una mejor persona

y como testigo ajeno del tiempo, esperas con ansias el regreso

donde sabes que ella te continua esperando con los brazos abiertos.

Me.-

I'm Finally Going Home !!

Esta va dedicada a Motika! Primero por darme la idea y hacerme llamar a mi musa casera ;D y luego por permitirme acompañar el resultado con una de sus fotografias, gracias mil !!!

Encuentro

2009-03-18T21:59:00.006-04:00

Basta!

Haz que el tiempo se detenga al momento de encontrarte entre la multitud

y que el ruido de la noche se convierta en un susurro pasajero

Ya no quiero ver mas caras ni oir mas nombres

me basta encontrar con mis manos tu cuerpo y saber que estas..

que eres y siempre has sido tu..

Ya no necesito el pasar de otras vidas por la mia

ni me hace falta encontrar consuelo en lo vacio

cuando el roce de tus labios sobre los mios logra estremecerme

y me lleva a otra realidad..

Deten mis horas, tus minutos y nuestros segundos

y sumerjamonos en esta locura constante

en este torrente de emociones ..

Perdamonos en el sinfin de la noche, nuestra con cada caricia

y que muere con nuestros gemidos..

Tocame y tomame

con el dulce acorde de tus dedos, en un solo compas

como una sinfonia perfecta de pasion .. desbordada.. desmedida..

Arranca de mi ser cada suspiro con tu boca

y desviste mi alma con tu mirar

haciendo de este encuentro algo interminable, sublime

donde ya no exista la multitud

y donde no importe el susurro pasajero de la noche ..

Me.-

Mi Antojo Eres Tu ..

2009-03-15T23:27:00.006-04:00

..
Te extraño..
aun cuando no he sentido tu aliento en mi piel,
te deseo..
cuando el amanecer me abraza en cada despertar
y mi cama añora tu presencia

Finjo estar dormida
mientras en mi mente hilvano fantasias
mientras veo tus manos recorrer cada espacio de mi
y suspiro..

Se me antojan tus besos
como cual fruta prohibida
y tenerte en una noche de desenfreno
como si fuese el ultimo instante
donde podria saciar mi sed de ti

Enlazados como uno y a un mismo ritmo
veo morir tus ganas y las mias
mientras nos estremece una sensacion de plenitud
y asi.. cae la noche dormida..

Y yo, rendida ante ella
esperando el momento en que pueda tener tu compañia ..

Me.-

Hurt

2009-03-11T09:43:00.007-04:00

Broken..
Shattered from the heart and soul
surrounded by darkness
and consumed by tears of pain..

Dwelling into nothing and dying little by little..
Survival is nothing but a stage where an actor plays a part
a road that leads to nowhere.. another character of life..

Emotionally devastated
with no wish and no hope
without the sublime feeling of simply being there
exchanged for the deep desire of becoming invisible
of disappearing ..

And I truly wish I could hide from the world
that I could crawl into the depths of solitude
and let myself go.. even if it means never coming back..

Shallow heartache ..
the sour taste of a good bye never said
of, perhaps, the better words left out unspoken
and no one else seems to understand ..

And every new night while dreaming of a time that never comes,
of a presence that doesn't exist.. I cry myself to sleep..

Me.-

Untitled

2009-03-10T09:40:00.006-04:00

It hurts.. like razor blades through your skin
cutting deep and with no compassion
letting every single drop of blood fall down

It feels like misery..
like being sucked into the abyss with no stop
with no opportunity to hold onto anything or anyone

You crumble and you realize that your strength ran down its course
that you no longer can perceive reality
and that the simple turn of things, tortures your soul
and hunts you down..

You dwell and wish you could disappear
that a black sheet of emptiness would take over
and after a brief second.. you could find the end
of nothing.. of everything

Feeling shattered and hopeless
perhaps.. broken as never before
you close your eyes and begin to imagine the beginning of the end
where the countdown never stops..

And the clock keeps ticking..

Me.-

Untitled

2009-03-06T13:10:00.005-05:00

I scribble with no actual sense
trying to find a reason within me to justify the why
and to ignore the where or when

I know deep down that fairy tales are absurd
but can't help but wonder the "just maybe"
the sensation of it could just be possible if you truly believe

I guess it becomes one of those gray days
where you simply don't know better
and you don't really want to try..

You dwell.. you sit and wonder with no intended reason
you become a shallow figure in the dark
and can actually feel the gripping hand of loneliness

Its not really about being sad or being down
its probably just another process,
one of those moments where you just need to reflect on life
and put yourself on another perspective...

Whether you come out of it stronger or not
smarter or not..
wiser or not.. is your choice and yours alone..

Me.-

Capricho

2009-03-04T10:20:00.011-05:00

Recorre mi existencia con tu sonrisa
y dejame aferrarme a tus ganas
donde el placer de una noche cualquiera sedienta de locura
sea el testigo perfecto de nuestro encuentro

Embriagame con tu mirada
hilvanando fantasias como quien cuenta estrellas
bajo un manto de cielo infinito
ese que aguarda el suave roce de tu piel y la mia

Besame hasta encontrar la saciedad
hasta que se calme el grito interno de deseo
y la lujuria no sea mas que un rastro en nuestro lecho
sublime, sutil..

Dejame tocarte y conocer tu realidad
que tu respiracion y la mia sean el unico acorde en el silencio de la noche
que tus manos encuentren descanso en mi
y el extasis pleno nos consuma

Perdernos en la infinidad de este anhelo
dejarnos agotar por este capricho
y olvidar el mundo alla afuera
dentro de un momento que solo sea tuyo y mio..

Me.-

Photography by Andreea Ardelean. Check some of her amazing work here. ;D

Tormento

2009-03-01T22:42:00.009-05:00

Y si te lloro ?

si trato de arrancar con estas lagrimas amargas tu presencia en mi vida?

si pretendo que no existes y hago un nuevo camino de fantasias vacias,

solo para sobrepasar el momento ?

Que mas da,

tener que enfrentar la realidad ha sido siempre mi mejor tarea

la mas dolorosa pero la siempre presente

Que importa salir con el corazon destrozado una vez mas, no?

Total, el fallo en mi contra esta predestinado

Tu ausencia no es mas que el reflejo de lo que nunca fue mio

De lo que no tuve y no tengo

Una lagrima mas, como la sangre que corre por mis venas

que me envenena por el simple hecho de no tenerte y no pertenecerte

Y que me queda ?

El siniestro susurro del silencio o la amarga melancolia de la soledad..

Y resignarme..

porque tal vez nunca fuiste de mi, mas que a traves del sublime espejismo que yo misma invente..

Me.-

No Me Importa

2009-02-27T12:44:00.004-05:00

Ya no me importa
ni lo que digas, ni lo que piensas..
la expresion de tu sentir no es mas que el grito de la amargura en la oscuridad de la noche

Y no me interesa..
no voy a ser la del comportamiento sumiso que te mira desde la esquina
esa que pretendes tomar en tus manos y moldear a tu antojo

Me olvide de las reglas del buen comportamiento
y cambie la tecnica de tus juegos

Deje atras a la mujer ilusa que fantaseaba con tus palabras
y que recorria las noches en busca de tu encuentro

No soy y nunca fui de ti
Y el transcurso de tu presencia no es mas que un recuerdo en la lejania
donde ya no existen ganas de tu nombre
y donde la unica salida triunfante, es la mia.

(...)

Agradecimento Especial para Hector E. Mota, cuyo fantastico retrato de la vida a traves del lente fotografico sirvio como fuente de inspiracion.

Mirada Desde El Pasado

2009-02-27T12:24:00.014-05:00

El pasado no conoce correcciones
y el arrepentimiento no conoce del olvido

Cada lagrima derramada como un espejo maldito
que te recuerda que los pasos dados ya no se pueden negar

Que tu desdicha fue provocada por tantos sinrazones
y que tu recompenza es la amarga compañia de la soledad

Y te duele.. porque eres solo uno mas en el infinito mundo del desamparo
porque la tristeza te golpea y se burla

Tan amargo el sabor de la derrota
tan malevolo su arrastre sobre tu piel

Te conviertes en un recuerdo efimero
y con el compas de la derrota, te das cuenta que dejas de ser..

(...)

Agradecimento Especial para Hector E. Mota, cuyo fantastico retrato de la vida a traves del lente fotografico sirvio como fuente de inspiracion.

Inocencia

2009-02-26T23:32:00.021-05:00

Como un ligero quebranto en la noche

tu mirada persigue aquel sueño perdido,

ese que cada dia pretendes atrapar con tus manos

pero que se escapa con la realidad del dia

Miras hacia el horizonte,

dibujando pinceladas de colores

imaginando que el camino que tienes delante

solo te llevara a senderos mejores

Inocencia absoluta,

que temes perder en el vacio de la cotidiana existencia

que retumba en el callar de tus sentidos

y te hace cre

cer antes de tiempo..

Sin perder el aliento

sin dejar escapar la calma..

tus ojos fijos

en el atardecer son el puro reflejo de tu añoranza..

Esperando despertar en los brazos de la sabiduria
haciendo largas horas de fantasia
mientras en tu mente juegas a encontrar la felicidad

(...)

Agradecimento Especial para Hector E. Mota, cuyo fantastico retrato de la vida a traves del lente fotografico sirvio como fuente de inspiracion.

Tortura

2009-02-26T12:05:00.007-05:00

Ver pasar el tiempo y los instantes
soñando con tu presencia,
ver el transcurso del reloj como un cuenta gotas que me tortura

Su avence es natural y no desespera
mientras que en mi la ansiedad me corta la respiracion,
abusa de mi tranquilidad y me roba la paz mental

Me mira como si tal cosa,
con la sublime nocion de que nada lo puede empujar
y mi anhelo de ver pasar los minutos hasta encontrarte
retumba dentro de las paredes de mi mente

Mi pensamiento esta invadido de ti, por ti
mi existencia tiene sed de una unica presencia..
la tuya..

La razon y logica las deje olvidadas en el cajon de la esquina
sin importarme su suerte..
sin tomar en cuenta nada mas que esta locura intolerable que se remueve dentro de mi

Con una pasion desmedida,
oyendo el susurro de cada segundo.. espero
mientras que la carcaja del tiempo, resonante en su lejania
ignora que mis ansias y ganas de ti, lo superan.

Me.-

Simplemente .. Tu

2009-02-23T22:37:00.006-05:00

Cierra tus ojos

regalame una caricia, un susurro..

brindame la harmonia y el acorde de tu cuerpo

Tomame como un pincel entre tus manos

y delinea los mas suaves trazos

que jamas hayan sido plasmados sobre un lienzo

Besame con la intensidad de la lluvia en una noche tormentosa

y que tu respiracion se quede plasmada sobre mi piel..

Como marca indeleble, como un deseo infinito

Halagame con tu mirada,

esos ojos penetrantes que hacen desvanecer mis dudas

y permiteme encontrar tranquilidad infinita entre tus brazos..

Me.-

Y .. ?

2009-02-17T12:30:00.009-05:00

Que te hace pensar que yo tengo tu respuesta?
aunque lo intentase.. no quiero..
La felicidad es una muestra personal de comodidad contigo mismo

Tu burbuja te impide ver los colores de la realidad
y gozas con cubrir tus huellas con un manto de mentiras
Mientras una parte de ti reconoce tu error

Te jactas de ser superior a tu entorno
y no te das cuenta de la ironia... para muchos, ni existes..
Tu insignificancia es como otra hoja caida en otoño
una mas, una menos.. quien lo nota?

Pretendes llenar tu paladar con palabras que tu mismo desconoces
infame..incredulo..
Sin darte cuenta que tus acciones te delatan

No me interesa conocer tu recorrido.. se me hace absurdo
Eres simplente una piedra mas en el camino
esa que deja un vago recuerdo de molestia..
Pero cuando desaparece, renueva la seguridad de mis pasos..

Me.-

How Is It ... ?

2009-02-11T09:39:00.010-05:00

That the mere existence, the fact of being.. can escape in the blink of an eye
like water running through your hands,
like blood running through your veins..

That time stops short of your desires
the happenings that never were and the actions that are far gone
like an abysmal second.. unreal, untrue..

How is it that your shadow reflects a different pattern
with every new step you take.. at every new place you get
as if you had the ability to transform into something surreal with every taken breath..

That you learn to avoid suspicions, even when you are surrounded by falseness
like a two-way mirror.. unbreakable, unshakable..
pretending you remain unhurt

That you get the idea of eternal, when you have not known forever
when reality is your permanent fantasy
the one you can't escape from, the one that won't let you be ..

How is it, that you can look at yourself every morning
with the perspective of a present-day
when you haven't learned to let go of the past
when you are still affected by what was left behind..

You are, and you will be..
whatever you choose, whatever you aspire to
and the only trappings to keep you company
are those of your own personal satisfactions..

Me.-

So.. ?

2008-12-25T00:00:00.007-05:00

You take a sip of wine and can't help but wonder..
Is it true?
The solitude of your table reminds you that time has passed
and that with it, it took away your reasons..

Your smile has become a blurry smirk
and your ideas seem to have no target, no purpose
The night caresses your existence
and a single tear is the witness to that moment..

ou stop to think that maybe, life itself is nothing but a russian roulette
your whole perception of reality is nothing but a story you've heard before..
so many times, but never changing shape..
by so many people, yet no one adds their own share ..

Your glass tumbles down in a red cascade of despair
and you feel the sudden panic of not belonging anymore
To anyone.. Or anywhere..
So.. what then ?

...

I'll drink to you.. Dear loneliness, and to your dark shadow, the one that embraces with its cold hand, and grips firmly until there's no air ..

...

Ser Feliz ...

2008-10-27T11:14:00.007-04:00

...
Podés tener defectos, vivir ansioso y estar irritado algunas veces, pero no te olvides de que tu vida es la mayor empresa del mundo. Solo vos podés evitar que ella vaya en decadencia. Hay muchas personas que te precisan, admiran y te quieren.

Me gustaría que siempre recordaras que ser feliz no es tener un cielo sin tempestades, caminos sin
accidentes, trabajos sin cansancio, relaciones sin decepciones.

Ser feliz es encontrar fuerza en el perdón, esperanza en las batallas, seguridad en el palco del miedo, amor en los desencuentros.

Ser feliz no es solo valorizar la sonrisa, sino también reflexionar sobre la tristeza.

No es apenas conmemorar el suceso, sino aprender lecciones en los fracasos.

No es apenas tener alegría con los aplausos, sino encontrar alegría en el anonimato.

Ser feliz es reconocer que vale la pena vivir la vida, a pesar de todos los desafíos, incomprensiones y períodos de crisis.

Ser feliz no es una fatalidad del destino, sino una conquista de quien sabe viajar para dentro de su propio ser.

Ser feliz es dejar de ser víctima de los problemas y volverse un actor de la propia historia.

Es atravesar desiertos fuera de sí, mas ser capaz de encontrar un oasis en lo recóndito de nuestra alma.

Es agradecer a Dios cada mañana por el milagro de la vida.

Ser feliz es no tener miedo de los propios sentimientos.

Es saber hablar de uno mismo.

Es tener coraje para oír un 'NO'.

Es tener seguridad para recibir una crítica, aunque sea injusta.

Es besar a los hijos, mimar a los padres y tener momentos poéticos con los amigos, aunque ellos nos hieran.

Ser feliz es dejar vivir a la criatura libre, alegre y simple que vive dentro de cada uno de nosotros.

Es tener madurez para decir 'me equivoqué'.

Es tener la osadía para decir 'perdóname'.

Es tener sensibilidad para expresar 'te necesito'.

Es tener capacidad de decir 'te amo'.

Deseo que tu vida se vuelva un jardín de oportunidades para ser feliz... Que en tus primaveras seas amante de la alegría. Que en tus inviernos seas amigo de la sabiduría. Y, cuando te equivoques en el camino, comiences todo de nuevo. Pues así serás cada vez más apasionado por la vida.

Y descubrirás que... Ser feliz no es tener una vida perfecta sino usar las lágrimas para regar la tolerancia. Usar las pérdidas para refinar la paciencia. Usar las fallas para esculpir la serenidad. Usar el dolor para lapidar el placer. Usar los obstáculos para abrir las ventanas de la inteligencia.

Jamás desistas. Jamás desistas de las personas que amas. Jamás desistas de ser feliz, pues la vida es un espectáculo imperdible. ¡Y sos un ser humano especial!

Autor Desconocido.

[ ...Just a little something I found .. somewhere lost, somewhere forgotten.. but never really gone - A good piece of paper that is worth reading even after time has passed and your travesy has changed...]
...

Against All Odds

2008-10-17T11:11:00.002-04:00

...
I know..
I take full responsibility and I assume the outcome.
It doesn't make it any easier, does it?

Es muy dificil aceptar cuando las cosas se salen de tus manos
y ese control que creias tener, desaparece.
You dwell.

Ese espacio vacio te acoge como el enemigo perfecto, ese que te desgarra sin que lo sepas
y en silencio te consume.
The irony of it all is that, somewhere inside of you, you always knew.

The magic spell is gone. El hechizo se rompe y la ilusion queda escondida en el umbral de tu recuerdo.
Look back at me.. At him or her...and at yourself.
Lo ves ahi pintado? Dibujado con pinceladas agridulces?

And someone keeps telling you to move on. Despite everything and against all odds.
I carry no regrets from that moment nor from this one.
Mi equipaje no es la sombra de un tormento irreversible.

I assume that with each new step, I try to learn to carry hope instead of sorrow.
Joy instead of washing tears. And a loving heart willing to accept.

Las lamentaciones nunca ayudan a cicatrizar. And yes, perhaps... I've been wrong all my life.
Maybe.. But living cherishing is better than hiding away.

Someone just told me:
"Recuerda siempre pensar con tu intuicion, porque el corazon es mejor que la mente. La mente solo supone; el corazon sabe" ..

It's human nature to debate between the two. Pero es de sabios reconocer la felicidad cuando te pasa de lado y no dejarla escapar.

Think about it...
...

Somehow

2008-10-16T00:32:00.000-04:00

...
You take the day off. You sit. You wander around.
Somehow, in the back of your mind, things start a a never-ending circle of "what-if" and "what-not".
You crumble. Like that lonely cookie inside the jar. The very last one no one seems to pay attention to? Yeap, that one.

You shake it off. You get moving and start a new pace.
Somehow, you are haunted by the sublime reminiscence of yesterdays gone by, friends gone too soon.. experiences learned too abruptly.

So you take a sip of life.
You create your very own "picture-perfect world" and you dress up with the illusions of a better morning.
Somehow, drifted among the spirits of those stories never told, you pay attention to the existence of a true desire for something.. for someone.

You make your move. You take that step forward into the unknown. You simply .. mmm.. DARE to do it all. Somewhere along the way you may question yourself. On that same path, you may let go.
And definitely, at some point, you will be ignoring the plaguing questionings of your surroundings.

Somehow you take it all in. You always move forward. You simply learn that looking back is just part of the journey, but NEVER a permanent call to your past.

Fog

2008-08-29T21:24:00.015-04:00

...

You keep trying to look beyond your gray wall...

the one that keeps consuming your heart and your soul,

the one that does not allow you to enjoy the feeling of being truly happy.

You keep taking steps back every time you feel exposed,

not noticing how each random step really brings you closer to the edge.

Your mind keeps spinning into an overwhelming silence

and the loneliness that surrounds you, takes over the hopes and dreams,

those that you build and that with your own actions you destroy.

Your cry is heard in the depth of darkness

and you realize, that the only embrace left for you

is the one of that single cold moment.

And you wake up..

You open your eyes to that raw reality that is only there to show you, that you have been the one hiding behind the fog..

That you are the master and creator of your own gray wall.

Mirror

2008-07-27T13:51:00.007-04:00

...

You sit and wait. Your mind wandering about what's next.

No one has given you a magic crystal ball with the answers to every question you may have, so your only choice is to play the game. Play life.

You have taken every opportunity you thought was great and let slipped the ones that didn't convince you. You have made your way and built your own path.

No one is the architect of your existence, but yourself. No one is entitled to tell you how, why and when to be happy; and for sure, no one can hurt you without you granting them permission.

You can hide behind a mask, behind a wall of lies. You can pretend to be someone else or hide your sorrows with a smile. Your whole surrounding is a reflection of your inner self, a trigger that forces you to face reality.

You live... And your constant walk is a reminder that time never stops. So why wait?

Life can either punish or reward you for your actions, but you are the only owner of that result.

So, flip a coin. Make your choice.

Destiny only takes its toll when you allow it.-

[ . . . ]

2008-07-23T14:00:00.001-04:00

...
Is it bad when you suddenly feel tired and just ready to give up ? .. "Tirar la toalla" some would say. Granted, I have probably a thousand and one reasons to be happy.
I am amongst the lucky ones that have a family, health, friends, a job, goals and even dreams.
Call it the "picture perfect moment"..

Then "boom" reality hits you. Check back to reality 101! Right across your face. I am a happy person. Always trying to stay on the positive side and brightening someone's day when is needed. But, with reason they say, payback is a bitch.

One day your whole way of thinking seems struck by lightning and you dwell. Te dejas ir lentamente, en caida libre hacia.. donde exactamente ? Tic Toc.. La nocion de que el reloj sigue corriendo con o sin mi atencion. Que la vida sigue pasando con o sin mi presencia.

Maybe, just maybe it's simply another gray day for me.. Hormonal ? Possibly. Hurtful ? 40% of the time. Something that will pass ? Definitely.

Probablemente lo he aprendido de forma sutil o,sin darme cuenta, si lo he aprendido de forma brutal y he sabido salir adelante; pero one thing is for sure:
" Whether is good or is bad.. Nothing really lasts forever"

This day shall too pass y manana volvere a sonrerir seguro..meanwhile, my-"with or without reason"- free fall onto nowhere keeps its incessant course.

Realidad

2008-07-01T01:48:00.001-04:00

...

Te sientas a pensar..

a mirar por tu ventana hacia ese recorrer que muchos llaman vida.

Eres un testigo de esa sinfonia interminable de vivencias..

Contemplas con atencion cada detalle del pasar continuo del mundo,

sin un "stop sign"..

No hay un muro de contencion.. ni escalas en una isla lejana

o en el paraiso prometido.

Te das cuenta que cada nueva persona trae consigo un secreto,

el pesar de su existencia; las alegrias de los recuerdos

o la fantasia del futuro que desean alcanzar.

Y tu... Te limitas a callar y a observar.

Como buen pintor de realidades,

tus pinceladas son impresiones con una analogia agridulce.

De tu vivir salen las mas sublimes obras de arte.

Deberias ya de aceptar que la belleza de esas piezas, esta en el ojo de quien las observa.

El susurro del tiempo te recuerda que tu tambien tienes el derecho a ser feliz,

que eres tan parte del mundo alla afuera como tus emociones te lo permitan.

Y si te das cuenta, no existe un cristal; si te fijas bien.. mas alla de aquella vieja cortina, tu ventana sigue abierta.

2008-06-23T23:04:00.003-04:00

...

" El mayor desorden de la mente

consiste en creer que las cosas son de cierta manera,

porque nosotros deseamos que asi sean"

Jacques Benigne Bossuet.-

Shh..

2008-05-29T16:38:00.011-04:00

Go on, whisper in my ear...
those sweet sorrows of yesterday are gone
and the comforting sound of hope goes by.. unmistaken

Go ahead, the lonely road has changed its glory
the secret now lies within each new brick that composes it

Walk along the scratches of the wind
the ones that keep you safe and covered,
the ones that with a simple joyful movement
can change the course of nature

Breath in peace..
knowing that today is no more of yesterday's journey
and with tomorrow, you always have the chance of getting your way

Take in the acceptance of welcoming arms
and leave behind the pretensions of those who criticize..

Shh.. Hush and look around you..
The new mystery is yours too keep..

Incertidumbre..

2008-05-26T23:09:00.006-04:00

...
De la dulce nostalgia que esos pasados andares dejaron
marcados con la huella del destino
y simplificando el sentir de ese corazon que hoy guardas con recelo

De no saber el porque y ni siquiera interesarse en el cuando
donde la desdicha es parte del ayer
pero tu presente no te muestra la claridad que deseas

De los amargos placeres que una ves disfrutaste y que hoy simplemente se esfuman
de los momentos que dejaste pasar pensando que el proximo valdria la pena tanto o mas
y hoy te das cuenta que tu tiempo paso sin rumbo

Esa incertidumbre que te acosa y acorrala todos tus pensamientos
y el aire de tus sueños se aleja en un destierro subito..

Y te dejas consumir..

Whisper

2008-05-06T23:12:00.000-04:00

dejas de ser..

como un leve susurro en una noche serena

tu existencia se agota

y el infinito abruma ese recuerdo

queda el todo en el vacio

y ya las horas no lloran por tu ausencia..

ese reloj no espera el minuto de tu regreso

y yo.. no puedo perder lo que nunca fue mio

[ ... ]

Suddenly I Realize ..

2008-04-30T04:46:00.012-04:00

[ That I'm just that little piece of your puzzle..the one you leave for last,
because you are yet not sure where it's going to fit..]

That I'm clinging to something unknown,

without hopes or direction.. a path that could have no end..

That our promises are staying behind

wiped out by the storm of emotions that distract us..

That perhaps love is not enough

and the idea of enternal bliss is a simple misconception..

That fear of losing you is keeping me away

and just letting go, seems impossible ..

That a few days or a few weeks can change a person's character

yet there is that slight possibility of coming out of it stronger..

That everywhere I look and everywhere I go

the resemblance of your existence follows me..

[ ... ]

Acaso se puede?

2008-04-23T21:38:00.002-04:00

Como hace uno para reinventarse? Es que, al parecer eso suena como una transfiguracion genetica... es mas, es como si de repente uno se percata de que es un producto mas en el mercado y es tiempo de hacerse un "upgrade".

Igual, muchos de nosotros hemos pensando miles de veces que necesitamos un cambio de actitud, ser mas positivos, mas dinamicos.. Un que se yo y un no se que nuevo.. Pero realmente se puede? Digamos que no nacimos con un "switch" oculto que podamos cambiar de posicion cuando nos sentimos de baja; o ponerle en off cuando estamos mas acelerados que un motoconcho, entonces que hacemos?

Hace unos dias un amigo me comento que el cambio debe ser interior. Mmm... "mira vos.." - como diria El - ahora resulta que para sentirme mejor tengo que cambiar casi de leucocitos y globulos rojos para tener una sonrisa en la cara y proyectar una buena actitud. Como no lo habia pensando antes! Esa es la respuesta! Claro, claro.. lo que yo necesito es una transfusion!

Y que tal me pegan algo raro? O quien sabe, hasta peor que lo ya tengo!

No, no, no y no! Me rehuso totalmente a que me tomen como conejillo de indias para cosas raras. Prefiero lidiar solita con la "depre" y el cambio de humor que parar de plano en un sanatorio.

Ojo eh.. he dicho sanatorio, no cementerio.. que aun no estoy planeando ese viaje y por mas triste que este, no tengo complejos suicidas *thinks again.. goes back in time..mmm* .

Y bueh.. ya vere que le hago a todo el asunto. Capaz solo tengo que tomarme unos dias off. Fuera de mi mente, fuera de mi rutina y despejar un poco las malas vibras; pa' mientras, le voy a pedir a mi compañera de tortura - digo, de trabajo - una de esas recetas para cambiarse la suerte y voltear la moneda. Mmmm.. en una de esas, facilito terminamos donde un psiquico y no donde el psiquiatra..

I < THAN 3 U A.G.

2008-04-22T01:12:00.000-04:00

[ ... ]

2008-04-22T00:11:00.007-04:00

Why should I care,
when the simplicity of your words leaves me hopeless
why should the rythm of my heart stop
when your eyes run away from mine

In an instant, what was .. just stops existing
and everything crumbles
and the idea of losing it all is overwhelming

Why should I accept the present without looking back
ignoring everything that was said in the past
and the promises of an enlightened future..

A riddle that you created
and my walk into an endless laberynth ..
That's the simple remain of our existence ..

[ Y el amor que nuestras huellas marcaron en la arena de nuestro caminar, se mantiene..indeleble.. y aun te quiero..]

Me.-

It's one of those days..

2008-04-05T22:44:00.002-04:00

It's again one of those gloomy days, when everything looks gray and no matter how much people tell you to look on the bright side.. you simply collapse and let life run thru' you.

I have underestimated everyone's opinions at times; always have been considered as the one that "has all the answers even when I'm wrong". I think to err is human and we all have our days. I also think, that every now and then we are just in the desperate need of attention.

I have experienced happiness. For the past few weeks I have known nothing but joy, grace, inner peace.. and that sublime sensation of floating in a cloud for a period of time that seems eternal. I have felt something I cannot described, yet others way before my existence, have named it as love.

I've taken for granted the whole feeling. I dared to believe that "love can do it all" and forgot that there are times when things and people outside of that personal cloud simply do everything and anything to prevent that happiness from glowing as it should.

I now find myself, submerged in one of those days where I am simply MAD at the whole world. It's funny, how instead of taking it out on someone or something, I just sit down and cry..

The fear of losing what has made me so happy, that someone that makes me whole just because of third parties has me shaking to the point of simply plummeting into chaos.

Maybe my sky is gray just because I chose to see it that way when I woke up.

Mmmm.. Maybe I do have real reasons and it goes beyond my paranoia. Whatever it is, I wouldn't like to cross path with someone dealing with mythoughts and emotions...

The overwhelming feeling of not knowing what's next, yet the assurance of knowing deep down in the heart what you want.. it's a contradiction that dwells with the tears that fall slowly into the ground.

It's just one of those days ... with the full desire of disappearing with no trace, the agony of falling slowly into an abyss.. and the sour sensation of being hurt by someone else..

Won't You ? ...

2008-03-31T00:20:00.003-04:00

Dare to dream of a better morning

dare to speak of tomorrow's journey

Open your senses

and let me keep you safe from harm

I'll cure your sorrow

and kiss your scars good-bye

Won't You ?

Dare to trust that you won't hurt and will know no pain

dare to wish for a love that never ends

I'll take your hand and walk with you along your way

and you'll realize there's nothing to be afraid

Won't You ?

Dare to see you are no longer alone,

and face the crowd with the senses of being whole

As I offer you all of me,

dare to just let yourself go..

..And let's imagine there is nothing else,

but the embrace of happiness..

Me.-

2008-03-28T01:33:00.001-04:00

This Is Me .. After I Met You <3

Isn't it too cute?!

Amor..

2008-03-26T03:37:00.003-04:00

When the night grows old
the warmth of your presence remains

When your arms are around me
the touch of your soul keeps me safe

When you smile back at me
my whole existence seems to blend in a dream

When you talk,
your words show the perfect harmony of your heart

With your kiss,
my world collides into a perfect whirlwind of emotions

My morning turns to night in an instant
and I can't wait for my sunshine to come back..

Your touch.. the essence of having you
its a blissful roller coaster, a non-stop ride to heaven

And I sit back and realize
You bring out the best side of me..

..You simply are the best of me..

Me.-

Because of You..

2008-03-12T04:05:00.003-04:00

I can stop pretending..
because my walls don't hold sorrow anymore
I can just let go
to the deep secrecy that dragged my loneliness

I can smile again
because your hand intertwines with mine
And in a blissful motion
the portrait is complete

I can see myself
with a different perspective because of you
Your whole existence.. my deep desire
running thru' my veins

You become the best part of me
with every new word, with each passing day
You let me understand
the meaning of being truly happy

I can close my eyes and feel safe
because I know your arms are there to protect me
You can close your eyes and believe
because my love its yours to keep

Our own picture of perfection
with no fears and no tears
just the complete surrounding of happiness..

Me.-

Luce della mia Vita

2008-03-09T04:36:00.007-04:00

Like a thunder on a silent night
you arrived..
With no expectations but a true desire of your presence
I was just sitting.. Waiting...

I was the one full of hope looking up at the sky
until you came along ..

With your mystic understanding and the simplicity of your words
You showed me your heart and with it, a new path..

My silent night has a sudden glare
a new sense and meaning..
The inspiration has come with your name..

Perhaps, that's why the stars are smiling now
looking down as if they knew..
Showering with their magic, your sublime company..

And now.. I simply don't want to let go..
I want to stop time, to frame the night,
I want to stop time, to keep your light..

[ A dream, is an answer to a question we haven't yet learned how to ask ]

Me.-

Self-Definition

2008-02-23T23:33:00.007-05:00

[ Ecléctico: Que esta compuesto de elementos, opiniones, estilos, etc. de caracter diverso; que sigue una corriente artistica ecléctica o adopta una postura intermedia, en lugar de elegir soluciones u opciones extremas o ya estipuladas ]

Si tuviera que definirme en este instante, lo haria con esa palabra. Digamos que, el periodo de transicion entre la adolescencia y la adultez, es ese tiempo (que vaya si parece eterno!) en que uno descube realmente quien es o por lo menos tiene mas claro hacia donde se inclina, que quiere ser y hasta donde quiere llegar.

Siempre he creido en la individualidad del ser humano; si Dios o el universo nos dio la capacidad de pensar y analizar, supongo que debemos tener la misma capacidad para tomar decisiones, ejercer el libre albedrio sin que la repercusion sea un caos tamano bomba atomica.

Es un hecho, cada decision trae consigo una consecuencia, es ley universal y seria muy tonto ignorarlo. Pero, que tan malo es tener un pensamiento o una actitud diferente?
Es, de verdad, algo grave tomarse la libertad de auto-moldearse de acuerdo a sus puntos de vista o sus perspectivas frente a la vida?

Soy amante del Arte en todas sus formas de expresion, con todos sus matizes. Amante de la Literatura sin importar cual sea su formato, ya sea una Novela, un Poema o Historia Antigua! Salto sin prejuicios por los caminos de la Musica, pasando por lo Clasico o hasta lo mas "pesado" ;) ... Simplemente me dejo envolver.

Me intrigan las culturas ajenas a la mia, el lenguaje que no me pertenece y que, aunque no entienda - su sonido me hipnotiza. Las caras de aquellos que estan lejos, el sabor de lo que nunca habia probado...

Uno que otro dia me siento Ciudadana del Universo, como si existera en mi una partecita de todo... Creo en tener una filosofia abierta ante la vida y asi disfrutar de todo cuanto exista en el camino.

De acuerdo a la definicion otorgada por la Real Academia de la Lengua Espanola, adoptar un pensamiento ecléctico, es tomarse la libertad de ... pensar, de ser diferente? De no adoptar lo cotidiano, sino defender lo propio?

Mmm... no parece tan mala idea, cierto?

Broken Page

2008-02-19T12:41:00.013-05:00

I sit and read through the pages of my book of life trying to find the hidden words between the lines
searching the perfect combination of what once just was and now its non-existent..

My tears roll down as each new page turns away
as each new chapter begings with hope and ends with pain as I walk away from the impression on these pieces

My book is a puzzle that no one understands
yet onlookers dare to judge and interpret it
as they feel, in their own ways..

A history that re-writes itself with new plots
a new adventure ending in disgrace
And I end up being the same old character tiresome and lonely..

My lines dwell deep and bleed, like scars on a broken heart
yet I look up in a senseless motion
And I still pretend that I can give live to a new story..

Me.-

Escape

2008-02-19T02:02:00.008-05:00

I wish I could escape.. from the prison of my mind,
the chase of my thoughts
and the torment of my own desires ..

*sighs*

I wish I could reach out of these walls
break the barriers of my imagination
and live beyond my own expectations

Escape from the sound of those silent nights
that surround me with their despair
Run away and hide from the multitude of
onlookers that are witnesses to my solitude

I wish I could cry myself to sleep
without really caring
Without feeling that my own happiness
is simply hanging by a thread...

Escape from the emotions and the dwelling..
Run from desillusion
And hide away from time ..

Me.-

Are You a Believer?

2008-02-10T22:24:00.002-05:00

Whether you have faith or you simply rejoice on the idea that something greater than existence is out there, the subject is often open for discussion.

I have been able to inmerse myself amongst the wilderness of the thoughts of many, and contrary to popular believes, its hard to point an ideal religion, an ideal custom of faith, an ideal mode for practicing rituals..

The subject indeed is wide and deep as any ocean can be, and as extensive and open to explore as the concept of the human mind..

Admitting to oneself that we don't control everything, that we were "made and placed" on this Earth with a purpose and that we are supposed to live life in an honorable way, might cause distraction and even dispersion of masses, simply because we have been growing with the idea of supremacy, individuality of character, possesion and control of our own ways and paths in life...

So, are we really ready to admit that maybe, just maybe, we are part of a greater plan; Part of something bigger than our pitiful impressions and explanations ??

Is it true, that the choice is only ours to make ?

The Miracle of a Child

2008-02-06T10:37:00.002-05:00

With loving hands you wake up to life
knowing that safety is holding you

Your smile can warm her universe
and your senses connect with hers as one

Her soul emerges when your eyes
simply encounter her glance

And then realize you are the little piece of heaven
she was waiting all along..

Her little miracle of life..

Me.-

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2008-01-30T22:31:00.003-05:00

Close your eyes and pretend..
let your imagination take you places
let me grab your hand and let you know it's alright

Let's dwell into our own little playground
and forget about existence
Drawing our path on the sand
and walking away from reality

Building our castle of dreams
surrounded by the sound of hope
The harmony of days simply takes place
and remains untouched

Pretend that there's nothing missing
and let your smile shine bright
Just the sound of your laughter echoing
on the reminiscences of infinity

And it just takes two..
keep your eyes closed
Dreaming of that path to happiness..
keep pretending our own little playground
is our haven.

Me.-

Una Victima Mas

2008-01-18T21:17:00.005-05:00

Es increible..hace meses atras me encontraba rechazando una invitacion mas..si, otra de las miles que me llegan para formar parte de una pagina de esas"socializadoras" [ I know, I just made up a word ;) ]. Una cadena continua de personas, donde no solo estan tus amigos, sino los amigos de los amigos, ahhh y los panas de ese pana que viste la semana pasada en una fiesta.. y que, aunque no tiene nadita que ver contigo.. lo agregas solo porque si.

Bueno, que cosa con la situacion.. si no te unes eres una antichevere que no esta en nada.. y si lo haces, eres parte central del chisme que se genera en esos sites. Terminas enterandote por Hi5, que la ex de tu mejor amigo anda con el hermano de tu amiga de la Universidad.. y que el primo de ella, embarazo a una de tu curso solo para sacarle los pies despues!!

Si entras en myspace, te das cuenta que hasta la Mama de tu amigo anda buscandose un novio por ahi, que sea rico, buenmozo, le guste viajar y que tenga como hobbie salir de compras ! Cuyos muchachos ya esten criados, tengan familia y si es posible.. vivan en otra ciudad. Y para esa conquista tiene unas fotos de cuando cuca bailaba.. y las que son recientes, tienen un solo trabajo de photoshop que te preguntas cual fue el "cirujano" que paso por ahi.

Entonces rematas tu agenda de amistades con un Facebook, claro! Ese no se puede quedar, porque aparte de informarte sobre quien anda con quien, cuando es el party de tu vecina, donde esta yendo la gente cool, que esta "in" y que se puso la tipa que menos soportas para el concierto de la semana pasada... tiene un reguero de feferitos o aplicaciones que te sirven para entretenerte mientras te enteras de todo!

Ay la tecnologia y la gente! Que hacer con todo ese mereketeke ? Nah.. yo comprendi ya. Sip..en serio. Hay una de dos.. o nadas contra la corriente o simplemente te dejas llevar. Ya se pueden imaginar con este simple escrito que me paso a mi, no ? Una victima mas de las paginas socializadoras esas que te mantienen al tanto, aunque te encuentres en China.

No Steps Back

2008-01-15T10:32:00.001-05:00

The past is hunting me back,
pulling me into the depths of it's bitterness

Dragging me as a demon to it's prey
and trying to make a prison within my own toughts

The cold hands of the phantom of what it used to be
pauses ahead of me as if trying to break my new path ...

I don't want to go back
I refuse to look into the eyes of what doesn't exist to me anymore

It's a promise to myself
a shout that closes the door to such travesty ...

Me.-

Inner Silence [ ... ]

2008-01-08T22:44:00.001-05:00

And I just.. let go .. of those moments
when I used to think of you
And now just wonder how you are ..
how life has turned out to be for you

And I imagine that within your thoughts
there's still a little piece of Me..
Then..
I can't help but notice how the empty space you left,
simply remains

Me.-

Abismo de Quimeras - New Year's Resolution

2008-01-02T22:06:00.005-05:00

De repente me encuentro desenmarañando un enredo de pensamientos que, lejos de ser arte, son simplemente retratos casuales que me permiten tocar temas que muchos pasamos por alto o que, tal vez, no son parte de nuestro espacio ni tiempo en el diario vivir. A veces es necesario buscar un desahogo racional [más que emocional] - y para ello, una adicion de estilo a un blogsito como este puede ser como un "treasure chest".

Mis opiniones y mis locuras, y hasta vivencias porqué no, serán descritas entre laberintos de palabras que podrán ser descifrados siempre que te tomes un momento y te aventures a recapacitar sobre lo leído.

Tal vez la intriga acompañe cada nuevo pensamiento; a lo mejor sean comentarios socio-políticos cuya naturaleza refleje al personaje que se adueña a ratos de mi raciocinio, o tome este rincón para liberar tensiones de una forma curiosa y divertida [ya que no hay mejor medicina que una buena carcajada].

Sean estos escritos lo que quieran ser; el trayecto esta por comenzar y espero que ser parte de él sea tan divertido como interesante y que, estas experiencias y simples divagaciones, dejen su huella.

2007-12-31T23:59:00.000-05:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR:

WELCOME 2008

. . .

2007-12-05T23:34:00.001-05:00

Close your eyes and wish [ pray ]
send a shooting star to the moon

Think of the impossible
and long for the unknown

Look thru' the abyss
run thru' all existence [ laugh ]

Grab a rainbow with your thoughts
and make-believe your fantasy is here

Live like no yesterday [ and no tomorrow ]
and dance amongst the rain of stars

And let the drops of night surround you with their charm ...

Me.-

.. A Come Back ..

2007-12-04T23:05:00.001-05:00

Time. Despair. Stress.
Obession with the past ..

Space. Destiny. Joy.
A come back to reality ..

Happyness. Spiritual.
Believe. Wish. Pray.

Dream...
It's being a while, but inspiration has returned ..

Me.-

2007-10-08T00:55:00.000-04:00

Moving On..

Taking what I care about and what I hope for
leaving behind the last moments
of my life

Walking away from the pain
and trying to reach out..

Moving On..
From the distant thoughts of others
from the pragmatic intentions that surround me..

maintaining focus on .. Me...

Passing by other people's experiences
yet creating my own reality

Taking the tools that life has given me to build my own resting place..

Moving On..
Away from the silence and deaf ears
from the ice-cold looks and poisonous words

Away from the impositive hand..

Getting away from it all, embracing myself within my own desires
Simply getting away ...by loosing myself within the

depths of my thoughts...

Me.-

2007-09-04T01:45:00.001-04:00

Suffering

Pero el tiempo mas que mi aliado, parece ser mi enemigo..
me ahoga en su existencia y no permite que las cosas sucedan
Se hace un testigo cruel de mi amargura y solamente me queda el vacio
de lo que deseo y no tengo..
de lo que quiero ser y no puedo..
de mi persona.. y mi reflejo que parece ser ajeno..

Me.-

2007-08-13T23:24:00.000-04:00

[ SIMPLEMENTE TU ]

Eres un personaje
asi como te describes y, tus historias son tan fantasticas
como las palabras son infinitas

Consejera sin fatiga
tienes el aliento que hace falta
cuando la caida es inminente

Abnegada a lo ajeno
cuidas de mi tristeza y
celebras mis alegrias como tuyas

La escencia de una amiga,
Compañera...
Tu que te sientas en el dia a dia
Y juntas vemos pasar el tiempo

Llegaste porque si,
Te quedaste por eleccion
Y compartes tu espacio a manos llenas

Soy afortunada, lo se
Tu me haces ver que todo
es simplemente cuestion de actitud

Una carcajada lo cambia todo
y tu mente siempre alcanza
esos sueños que te forjas

Y eres ejemplo...
Y asi me enseñas..
Que la vida es una sola.. y es mia.

..Tantas veces me has dicho que la vida te regala a las personas para que asi dejen sus huellas y lecciones en tu vida; aunque pasase el tiempo y las situaciones de la vida nos alejasen ( cosa que espero que no pase eh!! ) nunca podria olvidarme de que hay una personita en el mundo.. que siempre sabe.. :)

2007-08-09T03:58:00.001-04:00

...

En la soledad y el abismo
tu reflejo me acompaña
fiel a los recuerdos de tu presencia

Imagen perfecta de tu cuerpo,
tu escencia persistente,
añoranza de las noches

Y tu mirada me mantiene despierta
hace eco de lo que fue
y lo que espero que regrese a mi.

Me.

2007-08-07T23:54:00.000-04:00

...

Una carcajada se pierde en el espacio
y queda la absoluta resonancia de su eco

Su existencia maldita te recuerda que no esta..
te avisa que partio a tierras desconocidas
donde tu compañia no era necesaria

Fue cruel, fue doloroso.. y el agobio innecesario te quedo
como el ultimo regalo de su paso por tu vida

Te dejo con el sabor amargo de la venganza
y la dulzura de los momentos de placer
pero ya fue..

Quedo atras como el cantico romano de un monje en procesion,
como el despertar de cada nuevo sol, dia a dia

Y mientras tu buscas la manera de salir de tu abismo
su otra vida le hace sonreir

Entonces, por que sufres tu ? Si tu pasado anda libre como el viento..
si ni siquiera se detiene a asimilar lo que marco

Sus huellas quedan impregnadas en tu escencia
y tu fiel retrato ya no tiene la misma imagen..

Te volviste complice de sus juegos
y creaste ademanes perversos solo para encajar
pero paso..

Es tiempo de mirar adelante, saber que todo se va.. todo sigue..
el rio trae consigo nuevas corrientes y la intesidad nunca es la misma

La maldita carcajada sucumbe..
y el sonido del agua te trae de vuelta a tu realidad..

Ya puedes ser Tu, otra vez..

Me.-

2007-07-31T01:20:00.000-04:00

Reflecting.. Ana..

Cuando el tiempo pasa
nos queda mirar al recuerdo
de forma sublime y nostalgica

Cuano no encuentras palabras
para asi pintar tus emociones
su aliento te da fuerzas para seguir

Cuando piensas que todo esta perdido
te das cuenta que ella habria pensado diferente
ella siempre tiene soluciones

Cuando ries a carcajadas, el eco de su sonrisa esta ahi
y tus lagrimas se entremezclan a las suyas
compartiendo felicidad y amargura

Cuando la soledad te hipnotiza
sus ojos te traen de vuelta a la realidad
y te dejan ser

Cuando el abismo parece sin fin
te da escapatoria absoluta
donde no existe peligro

Cuando las noches son largas
oyes sus consejos como acciones ya tomadas
y descansas..

Sabiendo que siempre esta, siempre sera
sabiendo que nunca es tarde para llamarla
Queda el cuadro perfecto de su reflejo..

"And sometimes that is all that's left and all that's needed...
I find myself spending my time Reflecting My Best Friend"

Me.-

2007-07-23T00:56:00.000-04:00

New Note To Self: No Matter What Happens..

Always find within you, true colors to light your world with Happiness! =)

2007-07-19T00:56:00.000-04:00

Note To Self: It Just Takes Time

2007-07-02T11:25:00.000-04:00

[...]

“...Mesmerized, all she can do is watch this piece of her life move off; all she can do is watch it and suffer. She is experiencing a brand new feeling called nostalgia…”

-Ignorance by Milan Kundera-

2007-06-26T00:47:00.000-04:00

And...

Sometimes my sky is gray
My head keeps spinning
The heartbeats stop

Sometimes the smile is faded
Time seems motionless
Overpowered by the silence

Sometimes I move away
Build up a well and conceal myself inside
Avoiding ...

Sometimes a light shines thru'
Becoming a guide
Of the path I should follow

Sometimes a rainbow shows
Its colors bright
As sunshine on a happy day

Sometimes I let go
When it's taken for granted
Or is not deserved

Sometimes a smile comes back
Pretending to be something else
Pretending to have a motive

Sometimes I just am
Others, want to be
Perhaps don't even exist

Sometimes I wish
Upon a falling a star
To keep my heart close to what is loved

And sometimes.. just sometimes
I dwell into my own sleep
My dreams.. And fantasize..

Me.-

2007-06-20T08:43:00.000-04:00

[ Random ]
Will keep updating as thoughts come up..

".. If you got nothing to say, let me appreciate the noise that comes from this silence.."

"..Look into my eyes, and tell me if you can see my dreams, taste my senses, hold your breath for a second.. and enjoy the company of solitude, the surroundings of the emptiness.."

"..Kiss me with your eyes, touch me with your lips, taste me with your inner soul and let me exist within you.."

".. I took a trip into the moon, and left my heart on my way back.."

"..And I cry myself to sleep, hoping the sunshine will take away my pain and suffering, and a rainbow will make everything brighter and sweeter with its colors.."

Me.-

2007-06-11T09:05:00.001-04:00

We'll Always Have Johnny Rockets

..And I miss the way You pull me close to you
and look into my eyes knowing what I feel,

Knowing what I don't have to put into words

because is there..

I miss your smile and your laughter,

even tho' in my mind I keep playing it

like a movie non-stop just to keep you close..

And I smile at your memory and my eyes fill

with pictures of You and I, and I'm happy..

even when my hand keeps looking out for yours

I know it will be soon..

I miss the sound of your heart, the kiss from your eyes

and the touch of your lips..

And while I wait, joy overpowers my surroundings

with the mere idea of feeling you close to me again

of knowing, just like you, we'll keep making memories together..

Me.-

2007-06-02T11:02:00.000-04:00

[Ana Is My FoKiTo !]

Even if I don't get to see you everyday
I know you're there..
Like a guiding light that shows me what's best
With your word of understanding..

Even if the space between us seemed to expand
I feel your warmth
Your caring self that tends to hold me down
And lets me know when it's enough...

With time I've come to terms with my reality
Letting it show me the way of your friendship
And I never thought I'd find someone like you..
So pure and true.. A sister..A Friend..

You read me thru' and thru'
And keep me humble
You share my pain and happiness
And never dwell ..

Perhaps it's true we all have another self
wandering the paths of Earth
And all we need is to open our eyes to see them there

Some things stick with you, some people become part of you
Like the Scar you say I represent and you carry with you at all times
I keep your light close to me, letting me know no matter what,
Things will be alright..

Me.-

2007-05-30T01:31:00.000-04:00

"..."

let me slip away,
into a world where dreams become reality
where there is no one to judge and no one to blame
let me slip away,
into the madness of it all, into those eyes that shine like fire
and brighten my solitude
let me slip away,
someplace where I can belong without hesitations
near something that's truly mine and yours
let me slip away,
fading within the whispers of the silence
and dwelling into the commotion of the crowd
let me slip away,
counting with your company
with your guiding hand, with that smile that makes everything right
let me slip away,
to a new beginning, a new way
and walk by my side..

Me.-

2007-05-27T01:45:00.000-04:00

Collecting Dreams

Like a little girl collecting fantasy stories
I save every moment I spend with you
And wish I could stop time [ and make everything else go away ]

Just by lookin' into your eyes I know there's a better place
One I want to share with you, and letting the surroundings fade

Enjoying the silence of the night, the starry sky..
And your company..
Saving our moment in time...

Me.-

2007-05-19T12:17:00.000-04:00

What does your name say about you ?
[Blame Ana for this one]

A : you like to drink.
B : You like people.
C : You are really silly.
D : one in a million.
E : Great in bed.
F : You are dead sexy
G : You never let people tell you what to do.
H : You have a very good personality,looks and a very good kisser
I : Great in bed.
J : People Adore you
K : You're wild and crazy.
L : Unbelievably great in bed.
M : Great in bed.
N: Great in bed.
O: awesome kisser
P : You are popular with all types of people.
Q : You are a hypocrite.
R : Fuckin Crazy.(in a fun way)
S : Easy to fall in love with.
T : You're loyal to those you love.
U : You are really silly.
V : You are not judgemental.
W : You are very broad minded.
X : You never let people tell you what to do.
Y : best boy/girl friend any one can ask for.
Z : Always ready.......

~* ! Rocio® ! * ~

Wow ... mmm .. lets see, that makes me:

R: Fucking Crazy (In a Fun Way)
O: Awesome Kisser
C: Really Silly
I: Great in Bed
O: Awesome Kisser

NICE ;) haha

2007-05-18T11:45:00.000-04:00

Color My World

You color my world with your smile

And make everything else go away
The sense of you being there,

makes me feel like a kid again

I laugh non-stop and pray for time to freeze [so I can keep you]

You are shining thru' the walls I had build up
And like a rainbow glows, your light remains

And I smile.. and I'm happy..

And my world has new colors because of You..

Me.-

2007-05-13T02:03:00.000-04:00

I Smile Again..

Without a warning you came to me..
You brought with you a newer breeze..
And now, I find myself smiling with just a mere thought of You

My rollercoaster is riding high
And I'm surrounded by butterflies & the excitment of what could be

With every passin' minute I feel you closer
and the tempting idea of keeping you takes over..

What time will bring, only new days will tell
But because of You, I'm back being my old self
And with a childish laugh.. I smile again..

Me.-

2007-05-10T02:00:00.000-04:00

This is a new ride ;)

2007-04-26T01:00:00.000-04:00

Cuando? ..Mi Cuestionamieto y Confesion..

Cuando te vas a dar cuenta
que mi amor no es condicional, ni cuantitativo
que no acorrala, ni te juzga

Cuando veras que tengo las fuerzas
para luchar por tu amor y las armas para lograrlo
y que solo me falta tu aceptacion,
tus brazos abiertos.. y saber que aun quieres lo mismo

Cuando veras sin barreras mi alma..
mi corazon..
Esa llama que encendiste con tu primera palabra
y que nada podra apagarla, aunque pasase la existencia

Deja detras tus dudas y tus miedos..
Te endiendo
Pero se que todo se puede conquistar
si tienes la mano de tu amor a tu lado

Date cuenta de los gritos de mi vida
y mis ganas de hacerte feliz
Cuando vas a ver que mi amor es sin mentiras..
puro y calido como el reflejo de tu mirada

Que mi sueño es ser tu compañera incondicional..

Cuando te vas a dar cuenta, de todo lo que significas para mi ?

Me.-

2007-03-29T00:27:00.000-04:00

Transitando

Por la orilla de la cordura
junto al vacio y olvido
Camina un alma sin rumbo
esperado su destino

Va pasando a lo lejos
el acogido del tiempo
Y va llevando consigo
los recuerdos del silencio

Transitando en ese espacio
del que quiere hacerse dueño
Ignorando esos gritos
que le advierten del precipicio

Y cae... se deja ir con el amigo viento
admirando la nada y el susurro del momento..

Transitando, le pasa la existencia...

Me.-

2007-03-08T01:50:00.000-05:00

A Cry For Help...

and i pray.. sometimes hopelessly.. without true faith
but i pray.. and beg..
and sometimes that faith comes back and i wish that everything can be as i want it.. even when everything collides , everything is a plot
against my wishes..
when i feel that pain.. rippin' my heart out and trashing it down
that suffering and, yet i still pray cause i want to hold on to it.. cause i believe in it..
cause i feel someway, somehow, somewhere deep inside my soul
it is meant to be ..
but is it real.. or am i just fooling myself ?
i dont want to be left alone and i dont want to be let down once again as my whole life has been..
i am tired.. i feel numb... in a limbo of emotions and complete emptiness surrounds me..

Me.-

2007-03-04T00:57:00.001-05:00

2007-02-24T16:07:00.000-05:00

On The Verge Of A Complete Emotional Breakdown

2007-02-16T23:30:00.000-05:00

Humanidad / Umanitá

"Humanum est errare"

Te transformas de una forma camaleonica
para encajar en cada espacio y luego
dejar la piel detras para convertirte
en un nuevo ser tal cual serpiente de pecado

Te proyectas como el mas valioso tesoro
con un destello embriagador que cautiva al iluso
y al ingrato con igual intesidad

Te paseas como dueño del universo, ser supremo y absoluto
pretendiendo que a tus pies caigan almas rendidas
sin siquiera saber porque

Mientes tan bien, un papel que juegas a diario para hacer feliz
a los que creen que tu voluntad es unica y asi
pasar de un plano logico a uno surreal

Te reclinas en un abismo de sueños ajenos, perteneciendo
a la ironia de lo que has deseado siempre mas no te pertenece

Y asi vas a traves del tiempo, siendo uno siendo todos
dejando huellas indelebles que enmrañan una historia

Me.-

2007-01-13T00:20:00.000-05:00

Memoirs

Te arrepientes ?
Lo que fue y ya no es..
O te molesta ?
Lo que si y lo que no..y no hay tal vez..
Lo que puede suceder y no paso o ya se fue..
Paso de largo y te miro como un testigo perdido
Y..si te arriesgas ? Lo estas viviendo realmente ?
Solo tu eres dueño y centro.

Te diviertes ?
Ver las caras en la calle sin imaginar que hay detras
de cada mirada perdida..
O sonries ?
Al pensar los juegos mentales de cada nueva entidad que conoces

Y sin poder, sin entender ..
y sin sentido alguno
Te vas

Me.-

2007-01-12T22:16:00.000-05:00

It Takes A While

It takes a while to realize what's gone by
and you're only left with your struggle reward
Sweet irony of days..Thundery glory of nights

Making up for what once just was
taking pride for what will come
But it takes a while..

To get there & to leave behind
to get to know & bare your mind

And then the while runs dry of tears
when the wait is for hearts to heal.

Me.-

2006-12-23T23:56:00.000-05:00

Merry Christmas Everyone !!!